its life

its difficult

2009-07-18T21:07:00.002+08:00

its been a hectic week . everyday working non stop . how i wish all work will cease and a holiday to come . i use to believe tat i would work de quality and quantity for wat im paid for. but nw its different . sometimes u work too hard for u department and ppl will start to say tat u r showing off.

its really difficult . its both mentally and physically tiring.

its de same @ work , home and relationship.

how i wish i could sleep my day away.

cant slp

2009-01-19T04:29:00.002+08:00

hihi...

so long nvr blog le... whahaxx...

updates abt my life.

family.

everythin still okay. normal ba.

dear.

i dunno y @ this time i FeeL Like i love u much more den b4.

sry for nt being able to give u wat u want everytime.but i promise when i have de ability to earn , i'll try to provide u wit de best i can.

camp.

being a sect com isnt easy @ all..

human alone can be very complicated. i hope tat i can conquer them .

friends.

its been a long while since i catch up wit my sec sch frenx. hope cny will be de time we'll catch up.

tats all for nw.. whahax... jus packed my wardrobe . such a huge sense of satisfaction in myself nw.. whahax...

friends

2008-11-21T19:02:00.002+08:00

wat does a friend mean to me ??? it means tat he or she understands wat u r thinkin abt ..

will rmb u not onli in need.

no matter hw busy he or she is , they will still rmb ur birthday..

giving u a blessing .

all these left me in thought. am i forgotten ? onli remembered when in need ?

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

jus failed my btt... whahax. nvr study...

tmr still have to go ept . sianx.

sun still got duty . more sians.

next yr 21 le. its time to get more matured le .

MEMORIES

2008-07-20T15:55:00.002+08:00

051104.. time flies.

four years ago we were so happy... honey moon period..

these four years u were so good to me!!!!!!!!!! very good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i've let u go again and again...\
\
hurt u times and times.

this time ... u really left.

left for good.

i'll b happy for u ...

put behind de scars of hurt and pursue ur own happiness..

u take care....

i love u .

end

2008-07-14T20:52:00.001+08:00

its marks de end of de story.

complete end.

cant slp ytd.

very tired and shagged.

whr cn i find money?????????

dunno

2008-07-13T22:13:00.002+08:00

All back to de same again....

wat should i do ?

ish runnin a solution?

or am i destined to be alone....

w/o frenx

no lover

no family.

Y ISIT A MESSED UP LIFE ?

i control my own life

but i messed it up.

2008-06-13T14:59:00.003+08:00

it's been a long time since i come here.

boyfriend's sleeping like a pig now, and i'm into my hk drama series.

oh well. nothing much to be said, just come in here to clear the cowebs. muahahaha

ciaos.

2008-03-16T19:18:00.002+08:00

another week without boyfriend. and this's gonna be the last weekend. MUAHAHAHA.

apparently, i cant wait for the coming week!

alright boyfriend, ILOVEYOU. =)

2008-03-09T15:34:00.004+08:00

alright boyfriend, i miss u, like crazy!!! another weekend without. BOO

2008-03-01T22:20:00.002+08:00

here i am again, blogging for mr boyfriend.

apparently, he is in camp now, no book out this weekend. and it spells how much we miss each other.

muahahaha.

this post is just to let him know how much i miss him, and how bored i am without him, on a saturday night! LOL

ps: i wonder when he'll get to read this entry. perhaps never. muahahaha

2008-02-14T19:04:00.002+08:00

being leaw's perfect cum stupid cum idoitic girlfriend,
i'm here to apologise to him.

because as stated above, i'm stupid and idoitic, that's why sometimes i dont think before i say. so that's y he flared up yesterday.

and yes, i'm really sorry love.
that will be the last time u're gonna get angry with me, your girlfriend, and soon to be mrs leaw. teeheehee. =)

hihi

2008-02-06T03:51:00.000+08:00

today is 6thfeb 2008... 2mths bmt,recruit,ns life.... somewhat adapted le ba .

yesterday was 5thfeb 2008.... 39 months,1187days wit her... seperated and patched back alot of times and this will be the last time.

tmr will be 7th feb 2008... CNY . De 2nd year tat ah gong isn't around. time flies. miss his scolding and his nagging which is no longer ard in de atmosphere but always in memories.

Hopes for this year will be to cut down on my weight, hopefully be able to quit smoking and control on my temper...

i dunno

2007-11-30T01:34:00.000+08:00

i managed to bring up my courage to ask tat question

de answer was expected and disappointed.

mayb tat will bring me back to my senses ba...

i really do not understand why some women jus cant trust men... Men hv difft kinds. Dogs too. there are stray dogs , there are tamed dogs too...

NS in jus a week... honestly im more anxious than anticipate...

Haiz... will be cooped w/o freedom for two years ...

wonder how i will survive in there.

mayb....

2007-11-28T02:58:00.001+08:00

been telling myself i've to concentrate on my work and ns.....

i don wan r/s to hinder my mind....

but as de night of loneliness arrives. every single issues tat i wanna avoid entered my mind...

how to stop it?

i've once again returned to de dead derrick.

moody

2007-11-11T00:26:00.000+08:00

u don treasure wat u have until u lose it. why is this happening to me all de time? i do not learn from my mistake.... took things for granted , took ppl for granted. To be content wit wat u hv .

feel like drinking nw. asked brandan out, he jus keeps telling me DOTA. sickening.

i jus don feel like to be @ home.

in de day , my world ish colourful , in de nite , black and white.

2007-11-07T02:40:00.000+08:00

today i had the honour of eating supper with the greatest person on the planet! nasi lemak rocks socks!!!!! i was looking longingly at charissa the great's nasi lemak while i ate my pathetic da bao (and the uncle couldn't even understand me when i tried to order the bao). i cannot live without kopi bing and the teh bing there sucks!

I WILL BE A GOOD ANJING AND LISTEN TO ALL OF CHARISSA THE BRILLIANT'S ORDERS.

i will go buy pearl milk tea for her now.

2007-11-07T02:35:00.000+08:00

i am a dog and charissa is great!

whrs me???

2007-11-04T05:36:00.000+08:00

im missing so many ppl nw.....

esp nyp bm0502..

working @ gelare hougang mall nw.

i regret doing alot of things in de past .

its my life...

i need frenz...

respect

2007-10-24T14:34:00.000+08:00

i respect tat u like ur single life and pls do not think tat u r selfish in tat way .

if u think STOP is the best way out den go ahead bcos i agree, keeping a distance is the best solution. but i cant control myself...

i do not want to be a failure in de future like wat i am nw... i really don wan.

DERRICK LEAW WILL BE SUCCESSFUL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

talked it out.

2007-10-22T00:12:00.000+08:00

i was even more shy than her.

whahaxxx....

i was quite disappointed by de yi dian dian...

every r/s will hv quarrels and bound to have unhappy....

marry ur hai pa ba..

im back...

2007-10-07T01:57:00.000+08:00

I finally rmb my blog address.

06/12/07 will be my first day of confinement.

super duper sad.... 2mths , 8 weeks , 60 days away...

my life ish nw in a mess....

lost in my own directions and future....

need a compass....

2007-04-19T22:06:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday dear......

u know?

2006-12-21T03:34:00.000+08:00

WO HAO XIANG NI . BU NENG RANG NI ZHI DAO . ZHE ZHONG TONG KU, NI LIAO JIE MA ? I MISS U SO , MISS OUR TIMES , MISS BEING WITH U . CAN U BE BACK TO ME? I DON THINK SO. DUI BU QI . HURTING U AGAIN & AGAIN. COLD CREATURE, NOW I KNOW WHY.

WHY

2006-11-14T23:19:00.000+08:00

itz when i see u den i knew how much i miss u . den i realised tat u r faraway from my heart. all i can do nw ish to pray hard for ur happiness since i cant give.

working in a new environment lets me learn alot of new techniques and hopefulli i can apply them in de future.

i'll keep hiding.

totalli disappointed in DERRICK LEAW MING GUAN.

2 yrs ago.

2006-11-05T02:10:00.000+08:00

051104 used to be a happy date for me. nw. no longer. im too foolish.

jie

2006-10-19T01:07:00.000+08:00

thz jie for making my off day not a little wasted.
i dunno whenz de last time i had my slp till 1.30pm. simply enjoyable.
followed by a meet up wit grace. initial meeting time : 5pm. since she ended sch earli , i met her @ 3.15pm(planned) but i reached @ 3.25pm. whahazz .

went nyny(newyorknewyork) for lunch . had 3 side 2 desserts and free flow of lemon ice water!(which rt don hv.) we ate till 5pm lorr!!!!!!!!!!!

den went walk walk @ suntec. de toysarus(dunn0 hw t0 spell) was so huge. we were like 2 small kids playing in de wonderland.

after which k box was our another destination. de price ish quite reasonable for buffet+singing.
den went home. had de 1st try on raw salmon all thz to grace. itz alrite. nt too fishy .

i learnt a lesson from charmaine. face de problem. once u've overcome , satisfaction comes.

heaven falls

2006-10-18T01:00:00.002+08:00

i felt like fainting when i see heaven's sky falling upon me @ de most irritating/shag hour of de day . viceroy fills my throat as i hv to resume to work when im supposed to be gg home. nite as usual ... 7-8 all come 1 sh0t . 8-830 all go 1 shot. but ok larr. today no full hse. hoho...

when guessing games give me headaches. all positive thinking make me feel happi but 1 negative feedback make me fell so bad.

hope everything goes fine for every1 .

smiles.

heaven falls

2006-10-18T01:00:00.001+08:00

amazed astonished saddened

2006-10-11T04:47:00.000+08:00

i am indeed much amazed and astonished by the rate that u r changing . u cant see urself properly but others do .

im saddened as we drift further and further from each other when we were once tat close.

a knife pokes and stammers in my heart for watever reasons and itz dripping tremendousli.

ermm

2006-09-28T00:58:00.000+08:00

y ish love tat difficult. i lost that for tat long , once it appears , i cant get it . i don understand y ish it so . de feeling of love.

my hearts bleeding for months and my rain falls for months as well . wonder when is it ending. im simply missing so much . im left wit nth . y ???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

ish this de derrick who used to be ???

haiz.

i believe

2006-09-20T01:08:00.000+08:00

i believe everything has ended. if we were realli meant to be , we will.
memories will be kept and will nvr leave . thanks for everything and im sorriex to hurt u once again .

onli bastard can describe myself.

me a bastard .

stop

2006-09-18T22:55:00.000+08:00

pls don force me . i need time . u kn0w tat i d0n like ppl pestering . i hate it .
when im working and my hp vibrates n0n st0p . st0p this can ??????????????????????

admission has been delayed due t0 late payment. im onli gg into sch next april and which means i still hv 7mths left . i bet army will be calling me after my birthday. wat sh0uld i d0 ??????!!!!!!

things w0nt turn 0ut de way u wan it t0 be & d0n take it f0r granted pls.

think t00 much

2006-08-19T02:00:00.000+08:00

ish there a need for u t0 anyh0w think ???? haiz ...
im speechless

missing

2006-08-06T22:43:00.000+08:00

im missing so much of the past . i dread of th0se lives now. missing de atmosphere , de ppl , de frenship and de pr0cess. if onli there's a time machine.

im so tired. t0day ish veryvery busy .; madded.

i wanna be away fr0m reality.

a m0untAin f0r s0rr0ws & unhappiness

2006-06-13T13:44:00.000+08:00

if there's a mountain that every1 cAN p0ur all their unhappiness in it, w0nt it be great ???

some times i juz cant get thru wat some 1 ish thinking in the mind lorr. hAiz. h0w i wish i hv a penetrating eyes.

work life ish unexpectedly horrible. it juz sucks @ point 0f time when i expect it t0 be j0yful.

if any1 got anything wanna say juz come straight to me. tell me in my face. pls.

itz difficult handling human links. i love . love to be true . don wanna be in de dark. itz suffering.

again . if onli true feelings c0uld be revealed. sometimes itz juz s0 fake.

missing so many ppl rite n0w. juz s0 many t0 be named. juz miss u all lots. take care.

sometimes

2006-05-27T00:50:00.000+08:00

sometimes i feel tat theres h0pe in life s0metimes no.

somethings can be bl0gged while s0me cant. s0 i th0t 0f buying myself a diary s0 that i can pen down everything . i cant be transpArent here . c0z i rather hide everything . whahazz..

for all my frenz wh0z reading my blogg. juz t0 inf0rm. im quitting sch & starting my full time jobber life from effect of 1st june 2006.

b4 i left h0use , my m0m t0ld me she will leave some fried rice for me @ nite. s0 i reached home wit anticipation and my empty st0mach but wat i see ??? emptied pot . haix . she's asleep . shall ask her tmr.

ah gong

2006-05-15T20:59:00.000+08:00

Hope time heals everything. ]]

U seem so real to exist and so unbelievable to have left.
U are so caring towards every single happening whether or not it concerns u.
U have put in so much effort into this family making everything so smooth sailing.
U are the pillar of the family that everyone misses.
U so wanted people to respect u and every1 did.
U born, breath, died, and lived. In my heart.
3rd April, 1932 ? 9th May 14, 2006

I just wanna say I love u and I miss u.
If u happen to read this in heaven, im so sorry coz I dunno how to type in hokkien

yyy

2006-05-04T23:51:00.000+08:00

reluctant to work in fe . yyyyyyyyyyyy ??????

things sh0uldn't go this way.

sometimes i dunno how to read in depth . i cant analyse anymore. i can onli absorb watz on de surface ... myy braincells are bcoming more & more limited now .

onli 4 alphabets can describe me nowadays. lazy .

lazy in everythin lorr .... t0 d0 hw . t0 walk up . to study . to go sch .

mayb im growing horizontalli . all de fats compiled up and make me so lazy.

sometimes i hope i can get back . sometimes not .

running

2006-05-03T01:00:00.000+08:00

th0ts always comes int0 mind in these lonel nights.

left in de c0rner 0f de room . th0ts seems to be tackling u. beating u upside down .

watz left?? a w0unded heart .

i need to know how to prioritise. hope i can ba.

should i quit ??

if i quit. andric will ask why .

den i say i no time. wat will he say ??? work 1 day a week lorr.

but it will be de same de lArr.

i realli feel de urgent need to leave my time for studies and family .

when eyes meet each 0ther . they connect. for a period of time . den both broke into paiseh-ness..

hope tat i d0n miss so much .

feel likeyy

2006-05-02T03:50:00.000+08:00

feel like blogging lei. but dunn0 wanna blogg abt wat lei . erm. blogg abt daily life als0 very
boring. arrgghhh!!!

oohh yaaa. 1st 0f may le. must congratz to liling , officially de amk supervisor.

you were my supervisor !!!!!!!

whahazzz.

now im juz blogging wat cames to my mind .

erm . recently sleep so much sia. online slp. watch tv slp . on bus slp. watch movie slp. luckyy. nvr slp in toilet & while eating.

keeping silent ab0ut something ish a lil good. keeping something tat will fade soon to your ownself ish better than letting ppl kn0w le. den things faded. den will be confused. whahazz.

feel like slping 24h0urs f0r a day . recuperate all my energies.

i think i shall end here le . nth t0 blogg abt as well.

doottzz ....

of onli

2006-04-30T02:31:00.000+08:00

if onli true feelings can be revealed.
sorrows and loneliness will sustain until den.

lost de ability of loving .
lost de chance of being loved as well.

happy

2006-04-27T23:42:00.000+08:00

woke up late todayy !!!! arrggghhhh...

pon 2 lecs t0dayy... die . next week will be receiving love letters from lecturers and tutors le.

so in de end. onli attended anne marie's lec.. she's still so inspiring as ever.

i would like to thz and appreciate shareen so much. she's so determine in bringing me back to god. u r realli a great fren . thz so much .. same goes to mr ah gua ken. even we aren't close. but he still cares and concern so much . thz...

ur presence for a few mins brights up my whole day.

fuck

2006-04-27T00:21:00.000+08:00

wat de hell ???
i wanna work meh ????
na behhhhh....
chheee byee
work so hard. everyday. morning study . nite workk .i wan"?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

no $$ h0w??? r0bb ?????
i work lei
i will turn bad meh?????
pls... im not taking drugs or watever ok?????

im ur sonnn !!!!!!!!!!! u d0ubt ur s0n ???
dad does this. mom follows.

did u care abt my feelings?????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

social smoker

2006-04-24T02:01:00.000+08:00

mayb i shall be named social smoker . whahazz..

but luckily no cigarettes t0day . reason: no suppliers. whahazz...

grace arz.. don think so much . give him sometime. man hv mood swings as well . tc .

winston arz... watz urz ish urz. take ur time ba ...

jw. nt every1 ish perfect , every1 fails in 1 area. succeeds in an0ther. so don overl00k any1 of them.

mel . take some break time ba. working everyday will onli tired urself out...

yt. itz rite tt we need nt smile @ all times. but smiling not onli make urself hAppier. but also ppl hu sees u smiling.

shareen . i know u effort in pulling me nearer to HIM. it will come when time ish rite . i guess.

hoho

2006-04-23T01:10:00.000+08:00

sometimes itz realli good to hv urself in de whole world for a moment. itz simply great...

itz already bcomin a routine tt i go back to amk rt when i hv time. dunno y also . used to it le. whahazz. 2nd home.

worKing was fine.

but tiring. hoho ..

simple

2006-04-17T23:58:00.000+08:00

i realli wish to be simple in many things . many areas . but juz dunn0 why so many rubbish are qeueing up to corrupt my mind. my believes. too many issues complicating up.

simple means doing eveything w/o a motive. do it wit a willing heart. for 0thers sake . f0r ur 0wn sake. sincerely from de bottom of ur heart . u kn0w??? u catch it??? don d0 f0r de sake 0f d0ing. it w0nt benefit u in a good way . realli. do everything acc0rding t0 ur heart . ttz s0 real .

in clASS 2DAY makes me think tt mayb i sh0uld stop working life??? im too committed in working le. i need t0 c0mmitt myself t0 studies more than work. so wat if theres career oppotunity in de work nw ??? i need to care ab0ut my studies. year 1 gpa 1.9. ttz gone le. i sh0uld strive f0r 2.9 .. realli .

thz g0d f0r ur eff0rt in bringing me back t0 u . thru s0 many 0f my frenz. i caught ur signal. i saw ur bait. i'll bite. i'll.

taking something dearly from ur fren ish realli horrible. so , i w0nt.

heez

2006-04-17T00:42:00.000+08:00

it hv been so long since im in de w0rld 0f my 0wn. whahazz.

sch starting tmr. whahazz. itz will be a st0p t0 my alm0st everyday w0rking life.

but still will be w0rking ba. yawnz.

lazy t0 bl0gg...

byebye

.....

2006-04-13T23:43:00.000+08:00

......wad de attitude she gave??? treating me as transparent . being negilent abt my presence. juz bc0z my working standard fell???? u think im superman???? don i need time to adapt ???? i kn0w i may n0t be tt serious @ work compare to i used to be. but itz nt tremendously ok ??? i still go extra mile. cleaning here and there. u didn't see my effort . u don any how assume . i d0n care abt pay raise. all i care abt ish to do a nice clean job. making new frenz. enjoy working. ttz all. not working in an environment wit stress all overr. i admit tt some stress can propell 1 to perform better . but over exaggerated stress will onli force me to perform @ my minimum. pplease stand from my point of view & understand. if 1 don enjoy working . itz maximum output will be onli @ 90%. if u enjoyy worKing . and ur maximum output will be @ 99% . no1 ish perfect explains de remaining 1%.

increment doesn't help in boosting efficiency . motivations from superior helpss.

tired out ..

talk crap

2006-04-12T19:48:00.000+08:00

sometimes ppl realli shuld not think much . simplicity ish de best lorr.
complexity makes scenario worse and sometimes . or should i say most of the time. it'll complicate things & create unwanted misunderstandings. when u think too deep . u'll fall. juz like when u swim deep. u'll drown.

u cant over estimate urself. but u cant underestimate urself as well. u over estimate. u'll turn poud. be an unpopular stranger amongst ur frenz. when u underestimate. u will eventualli lose ur own potential. lose ur capability .

impossible = i m possible....

finding ur own identity ish important. but letting ur ownself coming backk to u ish farfarfar more important. sometimes wad u find ish nt de real u . ur true self will come backk to u very truly @ a very true time.

adapting takes lotz of time. but when adapting . u should be urself. if u change urself bcoz u need to adapt , ttz nt right anymore.

when u talking philosophy t0 a fren . u must 1st uunderstand and really deeply understand abt wat u r talking.

tiring

2006-04-09T00:19:00.000+08:00

whahaz tiring

ytd went to work from 4-10. new menu trg . whahaz. lotz to rmb. den after work was kbox session with amk ramenten rockerz. yeahh!!! liling mel fly winston. and me !!!!

b4 gg. i know i would drink. i tt i will onli drink bcoz i am hAppy. but im wrong. im drinking to sink myself out of sorrows. whahazz. don worry. i wont do wad i hv done again.

den slept @ 8am. wokeup @ 10am. went to work. whole day. veryvery bz. den saw mel & jw. so happy to see them . dunno y lei. den saw yt. very happy to see her too. den during my break. went to find liling & jw.

jjuz home. whahazz. tired out sia.

tmr working somemore.

mayb im too foolish/

overr le

2006-04-07T03:23:00.000+08:00

as i expected. broke up . 20 dayz 2gether. short yeah ?

but the love for her ish deep enough to cut my self thrustly deep.

i will 4giv her coz i know itz a rush. she hasn't got over it.

but how i wish she told me this much much earlier.

this whole thingy ish getting so funny.

i dunno hw to continue either.

wad can i do for nw.

ish to cleanse my wound.

wait for de recovering ba.

haiz

2006-04-07T00:14:00.000+08:00

will any1 ever understand hw i feel ??? some1 will say . " u didn't even say out ur prob , how u expect ppl to know " sometimes i realli don wish to burden frenz with probz of my own when they have theirs.

so all i can do ish to tell my blogg.

am i invisible ?? i dunno lorr . gave in so much . all i get in return ??? juz cold replies . i don even know where de relationship ish gg now. really dunno . if i don put in effort. there will be no love @ all . i put in effort. put in too much . all i get ish getting myself hurt & upset again & again.

is diz gg anywhr ??? am i considered as her bf??? am i ???????????????? her attitude 2wardz me. sometimes i feel tt im worse than being her fren. ish diz wad i deserve ????\\

im tired of wworking le . thought of quitting. can i ???? im realli tired. don realli like working in fe. im used to amk le . too used to it le. i realli feel like giving up le. should i ???

tt can get pay tmr morning . in de end ??? tt stupid thomas coming in de afternoon. why ????????????????????????????????????

discovering some1 who ish so selfish and self centred ish so scary ....

mayb

2006-04-05T21:45:00.000+08:00

mayb everything will be back to square 1. everything gonna end soon . guyz sixth sense. from wad she said. from wat has happened .

ytd i heard from 933.

u cannot drink anymore than 60%.
u cannot eat anymore than 70%.
u cannot love more than 80%.

im guilty of the crime . i have exceeded.
the 3rd rule.

mayb now there should not be too much hope.

mayb im not suitable to be in a relationship ba.

hi

2006-04-02T03:12:00.000+08:00

working in fareast was fine. but tiring. travel alone makes things worse.

waited for her for 2 1/2 hrs. she juz chatted wit me for 5mins. b4 tt ? she was chatting wit hee fren. haiz. so sianzz lorr .. gotta so mani things wanna tell her ?? end up ??? haiz . \

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2006-03-31T01:12:00.000+08:00

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2006-03-24T02:38:00.000+08:00

i dint expect much . but need u be so cold to me???

i gave in . i did to make u happy .

to lessen ur troubles.

but wad i hv ???

ish ur cold towards me .

is this wad i deserve ???

wad cn i say ???

nth to say ...

dunno

2006-03-23T19:45:00.000+08:00

dunno wat she wanz.

sometimes she juz gives me so much warmth . sometimes she juz doesn't bother abt me.

y is it so ???

de whole day nvr msg me.
even when i msg her. she didn't reply.
called her. knew tt she was out wit her frenz. but @ least reply me ma.

hAiZ.

met up wit tiff in de afternoon. had lunch @ ramenten. so long nvr see her le. still as pretty larr. don worry. whahazz.

working was fine ba. 2-6 nia.

so tired nw.

laterr gg for movie.

energy level . 15%.

http://kevan.org/johari?name=derricky

wo zhen de yi wei .

2006-03-18T01:40:00.000+08:00

whahazz

foolish silly me.. to tt that tt would be a chance

i wont be loneli anymore

but all was wrong.

here i am .

a drunkard again,

haix
,,..

me

2006-03-14T04:19:00.000+08:00

this day started when B called me in de morning. waking me up . so i bathed. went out. accompanied her t0 w0rk. den i was all al0ne. actualli planned t0 g0 0ut wit cin de. but den she was slping. hAiz. nvm den. i went t0 hv lunch @ ajisen al0ne. it was fine. grace came in f0r a seat. less than five mins den i proceeded t0 ps. intended t0 watch shaggy d0gg al0ne. den tt 14 yrz fucker fren came and meet me. we settled cafe cartel f0r a seat. i had a drink and he had his lunch. @ de same time. seeing yanning there. whahazz. den after tt we went t0 sent0sa. 2 sua guz in sentosa. whahazz. quite a few jap babes. hoho.

came home f0r dinner den out again. went t0 fetch her from work. i told myself im treating her as a sis . as a fren. she said she wanted t0 drink . s0 i b0ught e33 which containz 8.4% of alcohol/ i think iitz fine. but when she saw it. eyes opened. seriously . she drank ard 1/4. and she started talking rubbish . nvm . she fell asleep soon. awhile laterr. her head was on my shoulder. sseriously speaking. i was happy. sent her home. went down to amk s11 t0 meet r.t peeps. andrick tan ish gg overr to far east ramen ten. who's gg t0 look after amk ramenten??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
mayb itz time for every1 to mature and reflect . we need to be grown upz. don make liling worry. i believe she's stressed too. aniway. i had a 1 to 1 and heart to heart talk wit mel. it was a good 1. den after tt wit yingting. these chatz taught me to be more sincere and responsible in wad i do .

mel . i knw wad im doing, don worry. heez.

yt . wait till u see de real derrick. i'll be back!!!

abc

2006-03-11T16:10:00.000+08:00

firstly i hv t0 thkz these r.t. palz wh0 stayed by my side thru 0ut this week. winst0n fly liling ying ting and three new frenz... tigerr calrsberg and heineken. whahazz. they acc0mpanied me thru 0ut th0se cold nitez. itz c0ld . yet not loneli .

thankz t0 all frenz who cared. they are grace , yixue , stella , lynn , cindy , yanning , jesslyn. and lotz more. th0se who are nt named. pls inform me thru tagg.

sometimes im realli confuseddd. verryy... three in my heart . im fl0wer heartted. i admitt. but i realli cnnt decide who i love de most. A. im giving her up. memories are memories and love ish nt there anymore... B. i like her. i hv feelingz f0r her. but she said she treats me as a fren . wad can i say ??? sometimes she gave hints tt she likes me . den sometimes. she will ask me d0n think s0 muchh c0z she juz treatz me as a frenn. C . i miss her. i love her. but there ish juz a barrier. she said she missed me t00 .

im blurr....

hope everything will get better as time passes by .

sometimes , i realise

2006-03-05T03:59:00.000+08:00

im troubled. with loads of junkz in my mind. which seems like forever not gg away .

why am i giving myself troubles.

haiz . i dunn0 .

i hv already promised not to touch cigarettes.

i'll nvr.

mayb liquor will help ??

liquor brings me away from troubles but nearer to cigarettes .

i'll try.

mayb i should not be so concerned abt smth.

i've g0tta let g0 .

any hotlines ???

my life's in a mess.

derrick leaw. can u wake up ??? fr0m ur dreams , from ur fantasies. face de reality...

does it mean that????

2006-03-03T15:32:00.000+08:00

are these symtomns [ f0rget h0w t0 spell ] that a gal likes u ???

1. waiting for you to knock off from work
2. talking wit u on de fone thru out the nite

does it mean tt i like her?

1. send her home after work
2. will be thinking of her
3. blogging abt her

putting down everything will be my wish and hope. realli . im in de process of and i will continue to do my best .

ramen . biscuit . maggi . these are my meals f0r alm0st a week. whahazz.

grace jw and tiff. pls rmb de seoul garden .
eileen mc and ken . rmb on tue.
sat will be my cousin's wedding.
de rest 0f next week might be working.
whahazz .

watever

2006-02-27T00:05:00.001+08:00

friday 1130-930
saturday 11-9
sunday 2-1030
monday 11-9
tuesday 11-9
wednesday 6-1030
thursday 1130-430
friday 630-11

working schedule!!!!!!!!!

whahazz....

quite exhausted this few days.

ttz alll ba..

enough ish enough .

al0ne

2006-02-21T00:10:00.000+08:00

nw im al0ne. wit no 1 by my side. onli frenz. great frenz. thz to: grace cindy yanning yingting yongwee junwen fly and many m0re. itz more than enuff bc0z u all cared.

this ish exam period. but im oom[ out of mood ] to study. bt nvm . there ish alwayz a supp paper waiting f0r me.

to tiffany. buck up ! u can d0 it.

bl0gg an0ther time ba.

2006-02-07T23:48:00.000+08:00

now my deardear ish sick and slping like pig.

new year is approaching its tail end.

cny 1st day went t0 b0th ah ma hse's

cny 2nd day w0rked in de m0rning. den br0ught dear t0 ahma hse. my aunt's 1st reacti0n was " s0 sexy arz! " whahazz . den went k in de nite. ttz all f0r de 2 days.

there was quite a few stay0ver. annie's vict0ria's and kb0x.

next week ish study week and de week following next ish exams.

and im nt t0uching my books. when can i start?!

next week shall be v day and im nt gonna give her roses. why? she wans ferrero bouquet. yawns. but she's nw s0 sick . i didnt even play my part as a bf. cant pei her see d0c. if i can f0rsee tt she will b sick last week. i w0nt put my schedule 0n wed. haiz. s0rriez ba0bei.

tt will be all ba.

cya.

happy n3w y3ar ...

2006-01-24T22:51:00.000+08:00

heyy.. new year ish appr0aching in 4 days time. time flies.

last year during this time. wad am i d0ing??? multi j0bbing. whahazz. w0rking @ bee cheng hiang , summersp00n , and macd0nalds. whahazzz. that was real tiring but fun @ de same time. u get t0 learn difft skills fr0m difft j0bs which was enriching.

this year this time?? studying in nyp and working in ramenten. a wh0le new environment wit a whole new bunch 0f w0rking pals. great ones.

something that never changed ??? thats my frenz. my sec0ndary frenz. de same friendship that we had. although not meeting as frequent. but i realli d0 h0e de feelings will stil be there. realli disappointed wit smth which happened recently btw my sec frens and me . haiz. lets put it behind.

don worry. not 4getting u . my deardear. u knw wad? we are still 2gether. bonding into our love life as usual.it will be de same down de decades centuries .

same as every year. will still be getting ang ba0z. till im married. which ish in an0ther 7-10 years ba.

en0ugh 0f de past and n0w ab0ut t0day..

went t0 sch in de morning @ 915 f0r a talk 0n tep till 945. den headed t0 bugis for shopping wit jw tiff and kelly. bought a pants f0r 38 bucks from bugis street. bargained it from 39.90 t0 38.was quite happy that i cut it d0wn by 1.90!![ but my dear says im bad @ bargaining. ] nvm. den went back f0r stats lec. den went t0 chit chat wit ah l0yy.

den went t0 cwp. hoping tt i can get back my hp after a month. disappointed. haiz. s0 many ppl qeueing . 30 ppl!!! 1 c0unter . i s0 pek chek. i last went 0n 28dec. they say will cALL me when ready . but???? till nw?? no calls from them . i call them. de operators are 4ever busy. busy chit chatting ??? or busy eating. sianz. den went d0wn onli g0t 1 c0unter. wat ish this????!!!!!!!!! sianz... i hv already ask my aunt t0 complain lia0z. adult tends t0 have m0re bargaining p0wer.

den met dear @ cwp. den t00k 161 h0me l0rrr. hehe.. den had dinner. den sent her t0 tuition. den me g0 h0ugang mall look f0r shoes. to no avail . haiz. all d0n suit me. not wad i wanna. den bought a orange milk tea f0r myself and a choc ice blended f0r deardear. den went t0 hv a seat @ de staircase . drinking while waiting f0r dear t0 end tuiti0n . den tt lazy bum wanna take cab. den anythin l0rr. c0z she paying . whahazz. den im h0med. watched superh0st[ rec0rded ] den nw de result sh0w. hope lee teng nt 0ut.

tmr will be w0rking full . whahazz.

g0ng xi huat chaiii..

2006-01-17T10:26:00.000+08:00

why d0 bad things have t0 happen at de same time?

tears brings target nears

2006-01-08T23:40:00.000+08:00

yesterday

started 0ut de day by meeting mc ken yx joshua and cin. why ? itz cin's birthday!!!!!!!! happy birthday cindy !!!! den they went t0 jalan kayu t0 makan roti prata while i rush d0wn t0 amk t0 meet jw. i had t0 spare my r0tiprata f0r my pay . but ? he reached @ 940am. rreas0n ? he 0verrslept. den went 0verr t0 s0merset t0 collect my pay. better than last month. but. onli 3/4 as left @ de end 0f de day. went t0 have lunch with dear @ ichiban. love de tempura ice cream. den went sh0pping f0r new year cl0things. b0ught a flesh imp . a pmk . and a mickey. all cl0thes. hoho. den went my ahma h0use f0r dinner. 2 m00nthz nvr g0 lia0z. every week als0 work. hoho. slept @ 11.15. de m0ment i reached home. i dr0pped dead.

t0day ,

w0ke up @ 930. raining. till n0w. den went t0 w0rk. had a break @ 2pm. had teriyaki chicken again. and 2 gyoza. with rice. and a bowl of soup. den started work. den met this group of ppl. 4 customers. 2 mad girl had supersuper spicy ramen. and they did finish it w/o a drop of soup left. was surprised . was even shocked wit 1's stupid attitude. "can u serve me de bill?" de girl said. "u mind if u pay at de cashier?" my response. that as been our way to tackling customers when they asked f0r bill. but this girl said. is there a service charge? i said ya.itz 10% service charge. den she said if she could just pay 5% service charge c0z we 0nli serve her de food. not de full service. whaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! such a ridiculous customer. buay tahan. told liling. she ask me to serve her de bill. whazzz. i d0n feel like t0 serve her anym0re. s0 chuan took overr.. den worked till 8pm. c0z nt much customers. i als0 wanna watch renxinciaizha0 wanqian. b0ught a takeaway laska. mamamia!!!! eat while watching. den saw miyi fa shi cried. den de calls shoot so fast!!!!!! by thousands. bef0re that??? by 2 0r 3 digits. s0 pathetic.

den now ish deardear lia0z. had celebration f0r 14m0nths yesterday . dear arz. can u d0n care ab0ut hw ppl view u s0 much???? can don so sensitive???? alamak !!! aniwwayz .. i'll still love u that much and mucher. heez. muackzzz.

next week schedule:

tuesday[public holidays] 1130-930
wednesday11-5
friday[sub yingting]6-10
sunday1130-930

tiring week again.

that will be all..

stay tuneeddd....

just t0dayy

2006-01-06T00:28:00.000+08:00

many happened last week and im lazy t0 menti0ning about that.

t0day

stretched @ 9+ when im supp0sed t0 reach sch @ 9. conclusion? pon p0m de lec and turn up f0r tut0rial @ 11 with homeworks undone. den? 2 h0urs break. had curry beef rice. quite nice. den played s0me stupid guessing games. and last 30mins int0 studying f0r ews de test . den de next 2 h0urs ish de test . ended early @ 430pm.den headed t0 k0van t0 meet deardear.

we went t0 hawker centre f0r dinner. dear had shredded chicken n00dle while i had de h0rfun.not realli nice. but nvm. den we shared a glass 0f sugarcane. den walked ar0und. den send her t0 tuiti0n lia0z.

reaching home. th0ught that thatz de end 0f de day. but at my d00rstep. s0 many pair 0f sh0es!!! new buyer. den my house ish sold @ $144,080. actualli @ $144,000. my m0m say unauspicious. den de buyer say t0pup 80 buckz. s0 funny. den after signing. my m0m say. why u look like de mediacorp de ahnam. tt guy say " im his bro " whahazz. s s0 funny. den? after my dinner. @ 9pm. my dad say. wan g0 paint new h0use ma? i say anythingy . den 0ff we g0 . den we were back ard 12+. here i am blogging n0w. gg t0 be 1 lia0z.

t0day ish a special day. very special day . nov2004 dec 2004 jan 2005 feb 2005 march 2005 april 2005 may 2005 june 2005 july 2005 august 2005 sep 2005 oct 2005 nov 2005 dec 2005 and? jan 2006!!!!!!!!!! wh0a . 2004.2005. and n0w 2006 lia0z!!! heez. deardear arz. d0n be s0 sensitive lia0z ok? heez. muackz. i l0ve u.[ look @ de top of this browser. ]

grace... don be worried k? itz n0t ur fault. its tt stupid manager's fault. whahazz . take it easy.
cin ... u h0r.. i kn0w i may n0t understand wad u are underg0ing but i'll make sure u'll be happy always on every year on 7th january. don worry. smiles.
lynn... don worri ab0ut ur scar . it will g0 away. u need n0t b0ther abt hw ppl look at u. i kn0w that i may n0t kn0w h0w a face ish impt t0 a girl . s0rriez.

happy 2006

11 m0re dayz t0 14 m0nths

2005-12-26T21:33:00.000+08:00

sat

an0ther busy day. w0rked fr0m m0rning 1130am t0 830am. den went t0 ntuc t0 buy f00d f0r de party!!!! den we party all de way till 1 am. received a ch0c fr0m winst0n and a again , during de exhange gift event, its him again. whahazz. ate al0t 0f f00d tat day. den reached h0me @ 130am. 0ut in ten mins time. asked my dad drive me t0 yanning's h0use. cin was there t00.. had l0ts 0f chats till 7am. went f0r a breakfast @ rvm. smth like yakun .

sunday

den was h0me . den i fell asleep fr0m 12 t0 130pm. den met deardear t0 0rchard. de seri0us mistake. f0rg0t t0 bring her present!!! guess wad she gave me ?? an addidas watch @!!! heez. den we settled @ swensens f0r de nite . on de list . fish and chips.curry baked rice.fried calamari.banana split.orange sorbet freeze. so nice. this was dear's treat . next m0nth would be mine. den we were h0me.

monday

rest @ home f0r de wh0le day. s0 shiok . den ard 7pm. cycled t0 dear's hse t0 give her de present. a ring !!!!! den cycled t0 yn's hse t0 take back my contact lenses. den here i am. h0me!!!!!!!!!!!

merry christmas and a happy new year !!!

santa claus ish c0ming t0 t0wn..

2005-12-23T21:26:00.000+08:00

tue

dear accompanied me t0 cwp t0 repair my f0ne. den she b0ught de christmas gift for her class xchange present. den we went t0 l0ng j0hn silver f0r lunch . expected her t0 c00k f0r me. but. hehe.. den after that we went back t0 my h0use and rest f0r the day . f0r her t0 rest but n0t me. i went 0ut again at 9+ . den went t0 amk t0 find my ramen ten de friends.t0 celebrate andric's birthday . we had supper till ar0und 2+ den helpful de melvin asked his helpful de father t0 drive us h0me. s0 nice!! theref0re my night sleep was ar0und 330am .

wed

because i slept late. i woke up late t00. meeting f0r pr0ject was @ 10am but i woke up @ 945am.. wh0aa. tat was late. den i was late eventually. shirley and kt and yw de face was fine. but i c0uld sense tat qy was rather unhappy . when i was leaving , this feeling was even str0nger. i knw this ish my fault. s0rriex t0 all my gr0up members. after tt was 0uting wit jw and grace. sh0pping f0r my christmas presentS. we have t0 sh0p ar0und and wait f0r 3pm t0 arrive . reas0n ? ichiban's set lunch began @ 3pm. make all 0f us s0 hungry. finally , seated . 0rdered. and i went d0wn t0 breadtalk t0 meet my deardear t0 take de hp . heez. thz dear . den she went h0me lia0z. den i went ar0und sh0pping again till 6+ den g0 h0me. was s0 ttired. yawns.

thur.

ytd was a relax day . stay @ hm in de m0rning . watched tv and slept f0r a sh0rt nap. den 0ff t0 w0rk. had tom yam karage ramen . den w0rked till 930pm. waited f0r them t0 fang g0ng f0r supper. b4 that! i had t0 d0 cashier cl0sing. was ok. den when i reached h0me.. i den recalled. i f0rg0t t0 rep0rt sales. called liling. conclusion? liling called lia0z. chey. den @ nite n0b0dy chat wit me 0n f0ne . dear went bbq wit her classmates. den staying 0verr. me? watched tv till 430am den sleep. whahazz.

fri.

woke up @ 10 . called deardear t0 wake her up. she's h0me lia0z. den i went t0 bathe. den 0ut t0 meet deardear lia0z. we went t0 cwp t0 retrieve my hp . 0tw. dear was being pig. sleeping all de way . reached there ard 12. den th0ught can take back my 6260 lia0z. but? they asked me c0me back next week. s0bz. den we went ard walking here and there. den me went t0 buy ramenten de present f0r tmr. den we decided t0 have ichiban f0r lunch . s0 ? we have t0 wait again. finally , time arrives. seated , 0rdered , makan-ed , paid and left . den i sent dear h0me and me h0me t00. after tt? an0ther jap meal. ramenten!!! wit my m0m and aunty uncle. i had cappucino freeze and teriyaki chicken dry ramen. was ok. den home lia0z.

tmr will be w0rking wh0le day and much anticipated sunday ish 0tw!!!!! nydc mayb ??????? de mystery shall be revealed.

i wanna say : i love u

self c00k ramen

2005-12-19T23:29:00.000+08:00

saturday

it was w0rking day . fr0m m0rning1130 t0 9 .00pm. it was a unlucky day. i l0st my ez link card !!!!!!!!!! arzzzz... w0nder whr did i dr0pped it. den winst0n came 0verr t0 my hse . i had a bathe and we were 0ff t0 his hse f0r a nite 0f stay0verr wit chuan. we met him at de yiishun mrt stati0n. den pr0ceeded t0 his hse. he b0ught whiskey as chuan requested. had s0me chats and we were int0 de w0rld 0f 0ur 0wn. played dai dee till 7 am. chuan still insisted tt he wasn't drunk. in de end? head in de t0ilet b0wl. whahazz. den winst0n and chuan went int0 lala land. den i was watching m0vies in his c0m. den 9am went int0 lala land t00. waking up at 945am. den we went t0 have dimsum @11. den after that went t0 cp and meet my deardear lia0z. nw ish sunday lia0z. f0rget ab0ut de header. den she came t0 my hse. had lunch. slept awhile den she went h0me lia0z. den i went t0 lala land fr0m 4-7. t00 tired lia0z.

m0nday

morning went t0 sch @ 9AM. had acc0unts lecture till 1030am 0nli. den went t0 spy f0r an h0ur till 1145. den went h0me 0rh0rh till 2.30pm. andric called me and tell me that de dishwasher nvr c0me t0day. s0 ???? i have t0 stand in as dishwasher. when i was supp0sed to work @ 6.30pm , i started @ 3.16pm . all de way t0 8.40pm den i had a break. had t0myam seaf00d ramen. i c00k it 0n my 0wn !!!!!!! yeah . first time. it was delicious!!! den here i am h0me!!!

t0m0rr0w,.

tmr i'll be gg t0 meet deardear. think gg cwp repair hp den queensway ba... but realli h0pe that she wil c0me and c00k lunch f0r me 1st b4 gg 0ut. hehe . muackz.

wanna pr0ve myself that im able.

wat i kn0w ish. i put in 95% . if u think 0therwise. den...

2005-12-17T00:20:00.000+08:00

wednesday.

worked fr0m 11.30-10.30. andric taught me cashier closing. it was a tiring day. deardear came d0wn and meet me during de break . de way we are. de feelingg we had . @ de bust0p ish g00dd.

thursday.

p0m lecture started 0ut de day. miss paua's m00d wasn't g00d. de lecture gr0up ish as usual r0udy. den after tt was p0m tut0rial. her m00d was lighten with 0ur class ar0undd!!. den we had a break fr0m 1-3. me and yw went ar0und plea-ing ppl f0r surveys t0 be d0ne. hehe.. den anne marie's less0n was fine. g0t back test de result. i've g0t 39.5 0ut 0f 50 . whahzz. unexpected. grace t0pped de class wit 42.5. that was high. den went t0 w0rk. w0rk was usual. but cashier cl0sing was bad. i practicalli 4g0tten everythingy. i kn0w i have made andric disapp0inted. s0rriez. i am disapp0inted wit myself t00. after tt went t0 meet grace wit his bf @ a star kopitiam. sat awhile. feeling that's 0dd. den i made a leave.

friday[ which ish t0day ]

initially we have stats tut0rial @ 9am. but i end up waking up @ 845am. yawnz. reached accts lecture @ 1028 when it started @ 10am. extremely late. den ms ong broke a happy news t0 us. she's getting married!!!!!!!!!!!!!c0ngrats.... den tt marks de end 0f sch 2dae. but after that we went t0 d0 marketting de. den till 1+ we went t0 FJ t0 have 0ur lunch when i had h0t and s0ur n00dle.[t0myam??] n00dle. tt was nice. s0me chitchatz and im 0ff t0 hg mall. walk walk and disc0vered that de wh0le pizza hut ish c0nverteed int0 a ne0printing sh0pp!!! went ar0und t0 check f0r hp prices. den 0ff t0 ramen ten. was t00 tired tt i slept all de way fr0m h0ugang t0 amk 0n bus !!!

onli gd thingy in ramen ten t0day was de staff meal. nice. jumb0 chicken cutlet wit fried egg and rice. f0r de rest 0f w0rk time suckz. it was busy. very stressed. keep 4get ab0ut de kani maki f0r de bent0 set meal. den ll keep stressing me.! arghhh. cnnt tarhan.. den andric say we still need 800 t0 reach target at 830pm. 2 m0re h0urs hw t0 cl0se de gap?! den after w0rk went t0 arcade with jw and chuan. dayt0na time. chuan ish impr0ving!! den went back t0 ramen ten. ll ask me d0 cashier cl0sing. 4get a few stuffs this time r0und. but better than ytd. cl0sing as usual. den suggested t0 stay0ver @ winst0n's hse tmr nitez. s0 that will be de plan tmr after w0rk. tmr will be w0rking fr0m 1130 - 930 .

will be meeting ba0bei 0n sunday. heez. den tue als0. next week christmas lia0z!!!!!!! faster g0 guess wat am i gg t0 get f0r u f0r christmas?! heez. muackzz.

santa claus ish c0ming t0 t0wnn.

finally w0ke up late.

2005-12-13T20:32:00.000+08:00

w0ke up t0day @ 10+. stretched my hands and legs 0ut . yawning.

reached sch @ 12pm. practiced my access alittle and den went t0 find ms paua. f0r pr0ject de . after tt went t0 stats de lecture. ms te0u s0 fierce. everything i d0n understand much. s0 blur. ask her she s0 fierce. bt in de end i understand lia0z.

den had 1 hr break. went 0utside de labb discussed abt de pr0ject den went in f0r de access ica lia0z. den grace ccried during de test. think t00 stressed ba? cheer up!

intended t0 g0 fetch dear after her tuiti0n but i reached home late.s0rriez ba0bei. muackz.

queens fun way

2005-12-12T21:00:00.000+08:00

intended t0 wake up @ 0630 but ended up 0708. it was late . naturally late f0r class. luckily de teacher nvr say anythingy. i thought she was quite patient wit us. not bad. den was acc0unts tut0rial. but bef0re that lynn wr0te every1's name on the b0ard except adrian's. nice 1. will any1 who copied in exams say he study very hard. conclusion: thick-skinned. den every1 started scribbling 0n de b0ard. den i wr0te 0n de t0p. if there's no definte tmr. we shall embrace 2dae.den yw say i nvr write SKY. so i wrote. so? start skying nw. whahazz. lame. den we went to lunched at foodcourt. had dry noodle . was nice.

den i headed to hg mall.. walk walk. had a oreo coffee ice blended bubble tea. the service was bad. 4 crew. none smiling. den i walked to joshua's hse. met wit him. den we t00k 147 t0 queensway. reached there and walked ar0und. we entered a sh0p. saw de jeans. and de sales person was so pr0 in psycho. i f0und that jeans nt bad als0. but de price was nt wat i expected but nvm. b0ught it anyways. yx arrived. we went t0 mac and have a seat. when i was in de t0ilet, i f0und 1 d0llar. whahazz. den brandan came too.. sh0p awhile and we were 0tw h0me. we were all laming ard. especially wit brandan. i t00k a sh0rt nap t00. finally h0me.

t0mm0r0w cnnt met up wit deardear lia0z. s0rriez ba0bei. i realli wish t0 pei u de l0rr. duibuqi. muackz . de stupid access test fr0m 5-6.30. tmr 2 oclock den start less0n. cn sleep f0r s0 l0ng.

if onli s0rriez cures.

wanted t0 treat it as 2nd h0me.

2005-12-11T23:33:00.000+08:00

One word to describe. w0rk.

r0se up in de m0rning at 9.30am to watch de little entrepreneur on channel 8. it was s0 fun l0rr. even my m0m j0ins me in watching. had an early bathe ard 10.15 and den 0ff t0 w0rk @ 1045. up0n reaching ramen ten , i th0ught 2dae was liling d0ing 0pening but i saw a thick hand in the kitchen. andric!!! wh0a.. he had a meeting last nite till 2am and he's nw in the stall d0ing 0pening?!! den w0rk started since den. first customer. 12.16. wat am i d0ing btw 11.30 t0 12.16? staring in the air. thinking ab0ut summersp00n. i think back. i enj0y w0rking in summersp00n s0 much that d0nt mind w0rking 24/7 in there c0z i have treated it as my 2nd h0me. and i realli h0pe t0 have that sense 0f bel0nging f0r ramen ten t00.i realli wish.

everything went sm00thly until 3 pm. my break time!!!! yeah!!! had teriyaki beef ramen . 2 p0rti0n 0f ramen and add spicy. stupid winst0n add s0 much padi.. whahzz.. s0 i was d0ing my hw while eating that h0t beef ramen with ab0ut 3 glasses 0f ice barley. till 3.30. sales was 4++. haiz. still tat p00r. but nvm . we'll catch up again. den ard 5+ andric had a chat with me. invited me t0 sit d0wn. i was reaLli glad and happy 0f smth he said which shall n0t be disclosed here. a new rule imposed. using 0f hp: fine 0f $50. If fine w0rks f0r a c0untry , it w0rks f0r a c0mpany as well. it all went sm00thly t0 ard 9+ when 2 irritating regular customers came in. if u ever see them coming t0 ramen ten ard 9+, it means that u will be doing closing late. indeed. they left @ 10.23 when we cl0se @ 10.30. stupid. supper: chawanmushi maki sushi-es and teriyaki beef. wh0a. s0 full nw.

juz reached h0me n0t l0ng ag0. will be gg sch tmr @ 7+ and will be ending sch ard 5. after which i'll be j0ining yx j0shua and brandan in queensway sh0pping tmr.

i w0nt be meeting up with deardear till tue.. hehe.. s0rriez that i cant eat with u 0n tue. hehe. muackzz. this dear arz. keep ngiam me. d0n bl0g say me. bl0g she say me . hmph. i g0 delete de wh0le bl0g address lia0z larr..heez.

thatz all f0r 2dae...

im c0ntented

ytd and 2dae

2005-12-11T00:53:00.000+08:00

Friday

well.. yesterday was the accounts ica. i reached school about 8 and studied abit. i was about 78% confident about CAC and RBT. The day started with the stats tutorial with nothing much to do. That Mrs julie loke ish gg to migrate to.. erM.. 4get wat c0untry. nvm.. den afterwhich ish de acc0unts. de ica began. it wasn't cAC but RBT. Everything went sm00thly and i finally balanced the trial balance. therefore, i went out of the lecture hall first. The next 20mins was my tragedy. friends told me that we were supp0sed t0 prepare balance sheet instead 0f trial balance. there went my full marks. nvm. try harder next time.

den pr0ceeded t0 the free access lab f0r the stats pr0j. full hse. den we went t0 blkB level 5 de labb. den yw and qy left @ 1.40 f0r the leadershipp seminar. they will b 0ur future leaders!!! den awhile laterr jw j0ined us. den ard 4+ we went t0 ramen ten. Having in mind that i d0 n0t need t0 w0rk. i went t0 s11 f0r my lunch. g0d kn0ws. de dishwasher ish sick and im supp0sed t0 stand in f0r him.. wh0a.. that was tiring but fun t00. i have learnt abit 0f kitchen. hw t0 c00k a ramen and hw t0 wrap a gy0za.. i was quite happy that when winst0n said that he will ask me int0 kitchen when chuan's training ish 0verr and andric responded" its a good idea, next time far east need ppl he can go overr.".. wh0a. im s0 happi!!!!

Saturday

Intended t0 j0in deardear in gg jurong to repair her laptop de. I set 7.30am as alarm. i woke up. cancel de alarm. Having in mind that i shall have ten mins of nap, my eyes were closed. Eyes opened, 9.00am. called dear and she's already on de way. s0rriez ba0bei.. muackzz. watched d0raem0n till ard ten. den pr0ceeded t0 ntuc t0 sh0p f0r wat t0 c00k f0r lunch f0r me and my piggy dear. 0n the cart: Spaghetti , Prego mushroom sauce , campbell mushroom soup and y0utia0. of coz you tiao ish fr0m k0pitiam. This time r0und, i p0ur t00 much water. As a result the sauce became so dilute. i cook more l0nger f0r it t0 evap0urate. the smell was good. c0l0ur was g00d. but the taste. tasteless. mayb ish l0ng time nvr c00k le ba.. hoho.. den i send dear h0me. its was juz raining catz and d0gx. but.. when we reached sk. it was thunder lightning waves and l0ttss..end up... 2 drenched catz. den dear ran h0me.

den i went j8 find grace t0 lend her de access b00k. den came and meet me t0 buy his that superr nice c0at fr0m s And k. den went t0 w00dlands to meet yx they all t0 celebrate yx's birthdae. went seoul garden. ate fr0m 6pm t0 9pm. hoho.. den in btw. me chimb00n j0sh and brandan went t0 buy a cake fr0m bengawan s0l0. den we went t0 hg plaza bec0z they wanna play d0ta.. but im n0t interested. s0 me and j0shua went t0 p00l. s0 l0ng nvr play with him lia0z. he still s0 pr0.. hoho.. @ de end 0f the day me j0shua and yx cabbed h0me. happy birthday yx!!!!!!

0k.. that was f0r ytd and 2dae . but f0r tmr? i f0rsee a tired pig dragging his feet h0me. tmr will be w0rking fr0m 11,30am t0 10.30pm. sianzzzz.

my la0p0 ish in dreamland nw. hhoo.. she ask me d0n 0nline when im h0me. s0rriez deardear. c0z i wanna bl0g ma.. hehe..

i reAlli wish t0 warmth u 0n st0rmy days.

realising ish kn0wing.

2005-12-08T21:52:00.000+08:00

s0 much happenings fr0m 12th n0v till 2dae.. ab0ut 1 m0nth.. whahaxx.. m0st imp0rtantly . my birthday!!!!!!! nvm . its t00 l0ng t0 talk ab0ut everything. s0 lets just f0cus 0n de last week ba.

eRm. last week was ica week. was quite busy ba.. i juz discovered that i g0t 1 digit f0r marketting . last wed was 0ri0n's audition. quite nerv0us, at de same time h0peless. hw can i bbe selected 6 0ut 0f 90 when my singing suckz? hoho.. tue w0rking day... thur went t0 '4g's ' gathering with 7 pathetic s0uls with 1 restless lhh. nevertheless. fun. fri sat sun were consecutive w0rrkings. den c0me m0nday f0r sch00l again. 2 pr0jects t0 be d0ne. in de same gr0up. shir.kt.qy.yw. hoho..

alth0ugh i juz met up with la0p0 1 day last week. feelings nvr fade. missing u nvr runs away. this week nt very sure. bt aniwayz, jus met her juz nw f0r dinner in punggol. she had her 4ever liking y0ng tauf00. me? erm... h0kkien mee. @ last. 5 satays each wit ice milo t0 g0 al0ng.. den she 0ff f0r tuti0n. den i 0ff f0r cp f0r mini sh0pping when i b0ught 1 yell0w tee and a billab0ng cap. actualli wanna buy blue 0r black tee de. but onli g0t m. not suitable f0r my gigantic size.

i think ttz all f0r nw? will update s00n again. see u .

freed0m ish wad i need t0 give

and wat u need ish t0 be freed.

n0t t0 be c0ntr0lled.

i pr0mise.

An Apolegetic Entry

2005-11-12T04:26:00.000+08:00

it was so bad of me today to neglect deardear. Please forgive me. I was too busy in school today so i forgot to message u . and have to miss the night chat. Hope u have a nice sleep.

Sorriex to yongwee because i hv left u 0ut t0 g0 buy diskette. dui bu qi.

sORRIEX to winston c0z i left u there by coming back home. sorriex.

sometimes one can be too busy 0r tired t0 even think about he 0r she ish supposed to do . i left the tempura sauce and the hot water kettle and andric have to remind me to clear them.

i hope that i can enjoy myself and have a nice day tmr. But i foresee not.

Lastly.. nitez t0 all .

exciting next week

2005-10-30T19:20:00.000+08:00

an exciting week c0ming up ...

monday . study tw0 hours nia . den will be working full . from 11.30 t0 9.30 . as usual will be waiting f0r jw till 11. deardear will be gg to sch lia0z .

tuesday .. its a public holiday ! deepavali . will be working fr0m 11.30 t0 3.30 . hope that there aren't al0t 0f customers in the afternoon so i wont be that busy . after that will be meeting ba0bei @ my h0use f0r a surprise!!!

wednesday ... will be working 11.30-3.30 t00 . den will be home and rest ba..

thursday .... rest home ba. unplanned activities.

friday ..... studying in the aftern00n f0r 2 h0urs . den will be meeting dear f0r dinner @ city hall n00dle bar . after which we will be gg f0r the hits award ! hope that sly can win.

saturday ...... finally one saturday that im n0t w0rking ! will be gg k0van wit deardear .finally cAn pei her lia0z. m0st imp0rtantly . its 051105. 1 year bef0re was 051104 !! den will be gg ahma hse in the night . i hv nt been gg there 0n sat nights f0r dunn0 hw mani weeks lia0z . hoho.

sunday ....... will be d0ing 0pening @ 11 t0 3. den can g0 h0me rest again.

next week w0uld be l0ts 0f time f0r me t0 rest ba . heez .

missIng ,,

2005-09-26T23:13:00.000+08:00

wE s0ul-ed t0 se0ul garden @ 12.19pm. hungry s0uls indeed .

yes. dear finish her exams 2dae and we went f0r celebrati0n.

a wh0le dae in bugis area. walking , munching , f0t0-ing , drinking , chatting were exactly wat we did the wh0le dae.

u kn0w wat ? u are alreadi being l0cked in my heart as my mrs leaw .

t0 friends: fly int0 sky . cin . ken . ning . xue . yen . j0sh . bran . jing . eileen . alvin . chang-ge. and m0re !!!! u all are missed by mR deRriCk leAw .

s0 excited !!!!!!!!!!

2005-09-22T01:14:00.000+08:00

dear ! im s0 excited n0w , was thinking 0f calling u but d0n wanna disturb u fr0m ur sweet dreams . yeah !!!!! i w0n dark waters de ticks!!!! next m0nday . we can g0 se0ul garden @ bugis . den t0ill 5pm . den de sh0w ar0und 6.45pm. jus nice ! yeah... s0 excited ...

g00d luck f0r ur exams . muackx .

f0t0s .

2005-08-17T13:01:00.000+08:00

2005-08-17T12:43:00.000+08:00

`w3ak m3 -

2005-08-16T11:58:00.000+08:00

00ps . its mY turn t0 fall sick again ! d0wn with flu . s0rethr0at . and slight c0ugh! [ thanks dear f0r taking care 0f me , muackx ]

[ aBt 2dae ]

eRm . i w0ke uP t0dae morning @ 8 am and went t0 mac t0 studee. shit. 0nli studied abt stats ! abit 0nli . i carried s0 many b00ks . accts . stats . ec0ns .p0m !

den went back aRd 11 . slack s0 much at h0me . was real tired.

den i went 0ut @ 3 t0 meet Mrs leaw at amk . walkwalk . den went t0 mac. heez .

i had cheese burger while she had mc chicken . hoho. m0rning eat mac. aft eat mac. g0nna be fat lia0x. den we walked t0 nyp . den t0 yck mrt . t00k bus t0 rm . den dear h0me sweet h0me lia0x .

[ plans f0r laterr ]

the incredible tales ish waiting f0r me @ 10pm . f0ll0wing de american next t0p m0del . den sending my deardear t0 her dreamplace , heez . think im gg t0 studee .

heez , thx la0-p0 . l-0-v-e u m0st .

i.k.u.m.m.

2005-08-12T11:32:00.000+08:00

i kn0w u miss me .

i went f0r de firew0rks last sat at marina and tue at yishun . marina was far m0re fantastic .

i did not see my la0 p0 f0r 2 daes lia0x . indeed , this 2 daes seems l0ng .

i am going t0 w0rk this weekend . 2 weeks nvr w0rk lia0x .

i am lazy t0 type . s0 all sh0rt f0rm . whoho...

im s0 glad that my dear rec0ver lia0x . finally .

s0rriex f0r this few days . im busy .

heez . s0rriex ba0 bei .

muackx . ��变�� .

unxperienced .

2005-08-06T10:58:00.000+08:00

Is it predestined by our fate ?

I have never had a cl0se one with cancer before . Now , why must it be my dearest ?

Although she did not bring me up but ..

She treat me so well .

Gave the best for me.

I onli see her once a year.

I regret.

I admire her for she is ...

str0ng

determined

cheerful

perservering

aH ma . dui bu qi . w0 ai ni .

appr0ximately 270 daes .

2005-08-05T21:58:00.000+08:00

Began my day by acc0mpanying jw t0 a haircut at jefferey. It was a m0uth fight there wit jefferey. Afterwhich i went f0r my new specz . Den we went f0r lunch. I ate vegetarian again . I think i eat vegetarian minimum 3 times a week ba ? whahaxxx ...

Next up , i went 0n my way t0 orchard t0 find my ba0bei . But the bus'162' takes such a l0ng j0urney. Perhaps its a after-school time ? s0 there was a little jam . Theref0re i was late f0r de meeting . muackx . s0rriex dear . d3n we w3nt t0 hereen t0 buy my dear's sh0es . At this p0int 0f time , we din't kn0w where t0 g0. s0 she decided t0 g0 f0r the maid . s0 we went t0 check it 0ut at cine . But t0 my disapp0intment , the maid will 0nli be 0ut in 18august . Theref0re we went f0r kb0x since they have this national day pr0m0ti0n . But i d0n think it differ much aniways . We sang f0r 3 hrs. I think this ish de 2nd time i went t0 kb0x wit dear ba . d3n we pr0ceed t0 ps f0r 0ur dinner . We settled at pastamania because gladys and haze are w0rking 2dae . i had creamy chx and dear had bac0n and tuna . hoho ..

The following programmes were sh0pping , sh0pping and still sh0pping till ard 8+ den we left t0 punggol .

Last destination was h0me sweet h0me . Tomorrow should be gg f0r de firew0rks de festival ba .

s0rriex cin . i realli 4g0t abt ur bubbletea . next time k ? h0pe u hv d0ne well . s0rriex .

dear arx . 9 m0ntths lia0x w0r . heez .. appr0ximately 270 daes !!!!!!!!!!

iM l0ving u !

my heart bleeds each time u c0ugh .

elated .

2005-08-05T14:09:00.000+08:00

Firstly , Im here t0 ann0unce officially that my 6260 has gone into a coma. From an attempt suicide fr0m level 4 t0 level 2 . My heart ceased at that very point too . But nvm , it's undergoing a major operation . Hopes everything g0es well and fine .

Secondly , Tmr is a very special day . 0ur babii m0nth !!! 9 mths ish a long route for us to underwent together . Its just an0ther 1 hr more before the celebration begins . i think n0b0dy thought we c0uld reach this far . wE still have a l0ng way t0 g0 . and we will walk till de endest 0f time. Aren't we ? Heez .

Finally , i've g0t 83 f0r my p0m and 35 f0r my 0ral c0mm . iM s0 happy and mad !!! Im realli glad that i improved myself and getting better . BUt unfortunately , for econs , its getting another way r0und .

babii m0nth ...

mY frenz ?

2005-07-28T12:09:00.000+08:00

cindy vincent kenneth yanning yixue j0shua brandan cheng yen min chang jean eileen yi jing alvin chim b00n .'

I mIss u aLL s0 mUch !!!

whhahahaxxx

2005-07-27T15:38:00.000+08:00

Yeah ... aFter tMr , i'll be left with 1 pr0-ject !!!!!!

sTarted mY dAe bY reaching sch at 7.30 AM !!! revise f0r stats . d3n in d3 3nd ... i alm0st cried when i see de paper . c0s i think de Q are quite easy bt i dunn0 hw t0 d0 ??!!!! s0 disappointed in myself .

den after that was as n0rmal . den ard 12.30 . we were ask t0 d0 an 0nline evaluation 0n all de m0dules , de tut0rs , de lecturers. all i gave g00d . except f0r ec0ns .
p00r !!! aFter sch00l . we went f0r pr0ject discussion and it ended ard 8.. den i had t0 rush h0me . bathe and c-0me 0ut agn . in da hse f0r less than 10mins .

went 0ut t0 fetch my deardear fr0m tuiti0n . nt ppl tuition her .. ish she tuition ppl !!!! whahaxx .. den sent her h0me . d3n w3nt h3r hs3 b0rr0w Q cards fr0m her .. " y0ur d3ar d3ar alwa3s s0 mafan d3 " h33z .. d3n r3ached h0me aRd 11 !!!!

Jus d0n3 wit my speech !! jia y0u f0r tmr ...

l00kIng f0rward f0r fRi ..

cl3ared .

2005-07-22T12:55:00.000+08:00

i've finally cleared my p0m and 0rall c0mm de pr0ject lia0x !!!

iTs jUs like a lightened st0ne ...

Jus n0w deardear came 0verr t0 my hse f0r dinner . b4 that i w3nt d0ver t0 find h3r . d3n i t0ld her ish d3 4th d00r fr0m de h3ad . but it turns 0ut t0 b3 d3 5th .. whahaxx ..

th3r3f0re we m3t at d3 f0ll0wing stati0n . whahaxx ..

y3ap33 !!!!! i pass3d my internet and web ... alth0ugh by 2 marks 0nli . bUt nVm ..

tH3 th0ught 0f w0rking tmr make me f33l abit sianz . haix . budd3n wh3n nVr w0rk . m0re sianz . hoho ..

h0p3 that uR m0m will agr33 .

c0ld

2005-07-19T14:02:00.000+08:00

This is the only word that can describe my feelings this morning . I think i am really going to fall ill soon . I am just too weak now . But the endless projects are suffocating me . I know there are more who felt this way too . I really hope that i can regain my energy tomorrow for the presentation .

iM just unhappy at this moment . I know i maybe over sensitive but i am really unhappy and everytime u do wrong things , just 1 sorry ? Have u thought of my feelings ? 0r maybe i should not be so worked up ? But i am just realli very unhappy .wat can i say ?

mY feelings ???

2005-07-15T19:56:00.002+08:00

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heY . tHats d3 du3t s0ng by jackY ch3ung .

eRm . w3nt 0ut f0r w0rk 2dae m0rning aRd 9 .

mY d3ar d3ar ish supp0sed t0 r3ach sch00l by 9 but sh3 w0k3 up lat3 .

s0 sh3 skipp3d h3r l3cture . lazy d3ar .

2da3's w0rk was fin3 .

d3 m0n3y was rite . h3ng aRx .

aft3r w0rk went t0 ntuc t0 sh0p f0r ingredients f0r tmr's br3akfast .

g0ing t0 c00k f0r d3ar d3ar tMr . h33z . muackx .

luckily tMr n0 n33d t0 w0rk ... bUt hav3 t0 d0 presentati0n pr3parati0n .

tHat's aLL f0r 2da3 ba .

i'll miss u . f0r i l0ve u .

wHy ???

2005-07-15T13:14:00.000+08:00

y sh0uld a team have dispute ???

Mayb its n0rmal ba ... but i think they are childish . its fate tt brought frenz 2gether . cant they jus let in t0 each 0ther ? i dunn0?

ytd was my 1st dae @ candy bar . i was anticipating smth difficult and sianz . but its quite interesting . tmr w0rking in de m0rning @ b0x 0ffice . haix .. d0n feel like w0rking . iM tired lia0x . heez . 2dae n ytd was quite bz in sch wit pr0jects . exams are c0ming up t00 .

jUs nw dear came t0 my hse f0r dinner . s0rriex t0 let u wait f0r me f0r s0 l0ng . muackx . thankx dear . l00king f0rward t0 sat n sun when i can spend time wit u . muackx . quite a few weekends nvr spend wit u le . s0rriex ba0 bei . w0aini .

i kn0w i can trust u .

th0ughts running ...

2005-07-12T03:08:00.000+08:00

h0ping tt my accts will get better this time r0und . haix ..
I've been working these few days . I've been feeling so exhausted these few days . But there are some very interesting happenings , quite fun overall . I'll be working on wed again , but this week , candy bar .
I think i maybe having frequency from my frenz . I felt that we had different thinkings sometimes . 0r maybe its just we had onli know each other for months , unlike 4gs f0r years . Hope that all the 4gs are still doing fine . miss the class al0t .
s0rriex t0 my frenz and dear f0r my temper recently . pardon me .
deardear . sorriex for making things difficult f0r u . s0rriex f0r sh0wing my temper to u . dui bu qi . ilu .

aCCts . iM c0ming .

th0ughts running ...

2005-07-11T15:05:00.000+08:00

h0ping tt my accts will get better this time r0und . haix ..I've been working these few days . I've been feeling so exhausted these few days . But there are some very interesting happenings , quite fun overall . I'll be working on wed again , but this week , candy bar .I think i maybe having frequency from my frenz . I felt that we had different thinkings sometimes . 0r maybe its just we had onli know each other for months , unlike 4gs f0r years . Hope that all the 4gs are still doing fine . miss the class al0t .s0rriex t0 my frenz and dear f0r my temper recently . pardon me .deardear . sorriex for making things difficult f0r u . s0rriex f0r sh0wing my temper to u . dui bu qi . ilu

.aCCts . iM c0ming .